Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Norwegian castle and hike on p-day

Sister H and I. We are Besties!!

 One word... Jones! Actually I want to replace that word with another word...dedication. Because I am dedicated to sport enough to jam my finger and still want to play!  caption

 Me during the 3 hour weekly planning sessions we have on Thursdays

 District Pday events! This was last week when we went to a members cabin and then to this old castle ruins thing 

Me eating a homemade American Hamburger. So happy. 

 This is an unflattering picture. I would like it to be known that I had many layers on and I did not in fact gain 60 pounds. We drove up to the top of this mountain! Best hike I have ever taken because I didn't actually have to move!  

 Ruin castle thing, with some boring story that I stopped listening to because it was in Norwegian and I was too exhausted to translate...

More Castle 

They call themselves the three reasons

 This is all of us in this tiny little cave/dungeon thing that they used to smoke this guy to death in. I did listen to that part! 

. Probably the coolest picture I have taken so far. Elder Jones, Shanklin, and Neilson

 Me at morning exercise. 

. I picked this picture because it is the one that I look like I am doing the most in...

. This is how I feel about this vacation thing! Take that! 

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

LAST WEEK BEFORE TRANSFERS!!

Dear Weasley Family and Friends,
        "Ahhhh-laska!!" -The Proposal 
    You guys. First off, I won't even mention how the only emails I received this week was from Mom and my friend Emily. Second off, Norway is cold. Like really cold. Like Christmas in Texas cold. It has been rainy these last couple days, and without the sun it is chilly! Dark time is from Nov 21-Jan 21, but it is already starting to stay dark for awhile and then get dark pretty early. The sunshine is about to be squeezed out of the day! Yikes! I have to admit that I am a little nervous about winter. I don't know why I'm nervous now, and not before I left, because now it's a little to late, I'm kinda stuck. I have just heard some horror stories from members and missionaries. I am just a little apprehensive about it all. Luckily, I only have to live through one winter. I am sure it won't be bad.... fingers crossed! 
      So you guys are all in Cali together soaking up the sun. Tell me, is it warm? The summer was so nice here, but it wasn't ever hot. Maybe a bit when I was back in Skien, but Trondheim is northern so it was cold in the shade and in the wind. Btw, transfers are next week. I have zero idea what will be happening. I really hope to stay in Trondheim, but I have this feeling that I am going to be leaving. If I am I hope I am heading up North, but I feel like I will be sent West coast. Any place is fine except Oslo. Now that I have officially written that down to you guys I will probably get sent there, but I just don't have any desire to serve there. We will see though! I will let you guys know! In the perfect world I would still be here. I love Trondheim so much! But Mom, you will have to wait a few weeks to send the box of stuff because I don't know where I will be for sure. 
     Random Stories/Facts to make sure you are still reading and also make you keep reading.... 
1. A few weeks ago Elder Jones pretty much broke my finger. Okay, it was just jammed really badly, but it still hurts! I was not allowed to play volleyball for a week. I felt like I was home. Everyone was worried about me and Elder Bradford (the senior missionary) kept tapping my finger up, and I just kept taking it off. It was like the old days where you guys tell me to take my medicine and I just laugh and shrug my shoulders. :)
2. I started my driving school. Oh man. Hate it. I have to drive with an instructor for a hour or two and she commentates on my driving and makes me pretty much a nervous wreck. Which is funny because the one thing I don't want to do is wreck. I hate driving. I always have, but after the bad wreck I really hate driving. If I have to drive I would prefer to go 1 mile an hour. And if I'm doing that I might as well just walk. #hopingiwillpassmytest No girl has gotten her licence yet, but they really really need us to get them. Not okay. Not okay. 
3. Today we sent a text to a member and they sent the same one back but with corrections..... #dontthinklifecouldgetmoreembarrassing 
        This week was a good week. We met an amazing kid on Monday on the street and brought him back to the church to teach him a little about the Book of Mormon. He is 16 and his name is Oliver. He is very open and willing to find out the truth. It really amazes me. If I wasn't a member I don't know if approached by missionaries at 16 I would be willing to listen to them. He is very humble and thoughtful. He has been reading the Book of Mormon everyday. What a shock it was to Søster Hilton and I to find that out! No one ever reads!! We were able to meet him with 3 times last week. On Saturday he came with us to play football (European) with some members. Let me just mention here that I am worse at soccer than I thought I was. Also, Sondre, the member who was just baptized by Elder Jones and Ashton, was there and he and I about had a fight. Not really. He is the best! We just happen to always be going against each other. Listen, when I get close to the ball I just start kicking. I am pretty sure that I kicked him in the shin multiple times. I think it's okay though because he elbowed me in the chin several times. Good thing I don't have feeling there! Pretty much playing football with everyone was a bit of a dream come true. Europeans are really good though. I think they are just all born with this natural talent for it! But lal, back to Oliver. He is doing well. He is just one of those quiet take things as they come investigators. He reminds me a lot of Sondre, actually. We are really lucky that we get to teach him. I will keep you guys posted! 
         This week Elder Jones decided that he wanted to have a district meeting and really come up with a district goal for baptisms this next month. You know, I am ashamed to admit it, but baptism goals are really hard for me. Of course I want everyone we talk to to be baptized, but my faith has been a little down lately. We always set goals for baptisms, but I guess I have become a little jaded since being out in the mission field. Each month we set goals and each month I see no one get baptized, and I am embarrassed to say that this has shaken my faith a little. When we had the meeting and talked about our goals and our ideas I felt like my skin was on fire. I could hardly say anything because all that kept passing through my head was "I don't think that this can really happen." The meeting proceeded and I kept looking at the floor. We ultimately decided that we would work to have 11 baptisms this next month. We decided that in order to really show the Lord that we are serious we needed to sacrifice something. It was decided that our sacrifice as a district would be in three parts. 1. We would save on the way on p-days meaning that we would look for opportunities on pdays to find people to teach. 2. We figured out that we had 40 days until the end of Oct. We decided that like Christ we would fast for 40 days as well as a district. Each person would take one day, and since there are 10 of us, we would be fasting every 10 days. Every day we would all pray throughout the day for the person fasting and ask Heavenly Father to bless them. The third part to the sacrifice was a personal sacrifice. I struggled through the meeting. As Elder Shanklin talked about his faith for this goal he also spoke about how if just one person is not in agreement then it won't work. I felt like everyone was starring at me. You know that "How do they know?" feeling? That was how I felt during the hour meeting. When it was over, I bolted from the room. 
         My guilt wasn't because everyone knew what I was thinking or because I was worried what they would think, it was because I knew that I needed to have more faith to perform the miracles that I am set apart to do. I kept thinking over my feelings, experiences, and thoughts about the goal and my faith. I prayed that I would be able to feel that this goal was right and that I would be given the faith to continue forward. I didn't need a perfect faith or the faith of the other missionaries, I just needed enough faith to take another step. I was frustrated with myself. I speak to people all day who tell me that they would believe in God if he would just show them a sign, and it drives me absolutely crazy because I know that not even a sign would be enough for them. Yet, here I sat demanding to see the fruit of our labor before I decided to believe that it was possible. As I pondered and prayed I felt like I needed to get a blessing. I asked Elder Jones to give me one the next day. I was hopeful that I would receive more revelation, but I was worried that the Lord yet again would give me little direct direction. We went downstairs to a quiet room and Elder Jones began my blessing. As soon as he placed his hands on my head along with Elder Neilsen, a sweet peace came over me. It was one of the most personal blessings that I have ever had. It seemed to directly answer all my questions and concerns, even those that weren't directly on my mind. The thing that really stuck out to me was when he said "Do not be afraid. The Lord has said "fear not, I am with you." You have the power to accomplish the goals that you have set for yourself and the goals the Lord has set for you." I had spoken to Søster Hilton a lot in the last few days that I felt like I didn't have the resources to accomplish the things that were expected of me, and when Elder Jones said that I felt so loved and so important to the Lord. I think as missionaries, or mothers, or friends, or husbands, we make the mistake of thinking that we were sent out with all the wrong talents. We feel we can't fit into the roles or callings we have and we think "Why was I picked?" This week I re-learned that we are prepared to handle the situation that arise better than we think we are. We have been prepared for our trials long before we even had a concept of what a trial was. We aren't given tasks or jobs to fail, but to succeed gloriously. Life is real, trials are hard, and disappointment can settle in, but those things are only temporary. They come and go. The only steadfast fact is that we are children of Heavenly Father and our individual worth is not based on our weaknesses, but our desire to overcome them. The Lord will always bless us with more help, support, faith, or hope, if we just ask. 
          We have a busy month ahead of us. To be real about our goal, we really need to find all of our investigators this week that will be baptized by the end of the month. It is crunch time, but it is more importantly, miracle time. I am really excited to see the miracles that will be happening this month. I hope that I am in Trondheim to see it. Honestly, we are a bit of dream team in in Trondheim right now. Can President honestly break us up?! 
         Elder Jones called to get our numbers last night and we were talking about sacrifices and our thoughts on the next month. He told me that his brother's mission president asked them to always bring up baptism in every contact on the street. So it would it would be something like this "If you knew what I was saying was true would you be baptized?" I thought about it and honestly I think that sounds like the most uncomfortable scariest thing ever, so I told Elder Jones that I am making it a goal to do it in every contact. I figure if I just do everything that is scary and makes me want to throw up then the Lord has to bless us with people to baptize! I am making a list of all the different things and I am just going to check them off as the day goes on. Feel at peace knowing that I am going to be looking like an idiot this month, but that I will be loving it and adding up my awkward experiences along the way! 
            But, let's just cut all the get-to-know-you questions. How how how is Huntington Beach? Are you guys even there right now? I honestly can't even remember the itinerary of this thing. Why have I not seen pictures and videos? Rude. I would write all of you back who wrote me, but....well...read the first paragraph of my email if you have forgotten. Did Kate find a bathing suit? That is what I really need to know. I am sad that Jordy doesn't get to be with you guys! But I mean he is a big NFL player now, so such is the life. Btw, Elder Neilson is so much like Jordan that if makes me feel uncomfortable at times. He takes it as a huge compliment when I compare him though. I want to hear about all of you!! So write me back!!! I love you guys!
Love,
Søster Kat 

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

I HATE THE WIND!!IT'S TRYING TO KILL ME!

Dear Weasley Family and Friends,
       Yesterday I almost died. I had a real life Wizard of Oz experience. I don't know what is going on, but the wind has blown in from the east. Here Hilty and I are contacting our way through life and the wind is just being all sorts of crazy. This huge gust of wind comes and this wooden board and metal goes flying in the air. #iamnotthewickedwitchofthewest Not okay. Not okay. Is this what fall is like? #whereisthesungoing #notlookingforwardtowinter Someone google this, because I just need to know, do I or do I not need to wear a helmet? #thisisreal
      So, now that that is out of the way, how is everyone? Yesterday a man from San Antonio came to church because he is here on business. I asked him how things are back in the great state of Texas (guess who is wearing their texas shirt right now? This girl.) He told me that it was really hot. I don't miss that, but at the same time I do. It is bushy bushy here. Mom, you would love it. It is getting dark though. Not too fun. I don't know how to prepare for that! I am still taking my calcium and VD. So be proud, be proud. 
      I refuse to acknowledge that you guys are all getting together without me this week. But while I am refusing to acknowledge it, I would just like to say that I expect multiple emails, videos, and letters. Mostly videos. I watched the one that Lins sent the other day with my district and they about died when Dad started talking. I have forgotten how strong all of y'alls accents are. My district likes to ask me to say pin and pen. Guess what? They are the same word pronounced the same way. #thisistexas #welcometomerica #getoutofhereeuroland 
      Today we are going to this Castle with a member and grilling out. It is taking all day, so I don't have much time to write, but I wanted to at least get something off. This last week was okay. I think we went contacting on the streets more this week than we have in my whole mission. We were out walking around 4-6 hours a day. It was kinda crazy. Sadly, we haven't seen too many fruits from that. No one will meet with us, and those that say they will don't show up. I know that the blessing and the miracles will come, I just don't know when. We are trying to focus all of our prayers on gratitude. Things are hard right now and so instead of asking for a million things we are trying to see the miracles and small successes we already have. We are extremely blessed, even though things kinda suck. Sometimes, when I write I think that I should probably go back and make what I just said more formal and missonary-ish. But then I think how lazy I am and just do nothing. Our area is struggling a bit, but I know that as we do what the Lord says he is bound. We are going to find new people this week! I know it! It is a good time to grow closer to the Savior, for he is the only one that really gets it and can take our sorrows. It's tough right now, but at the same time I am happy. I know that the Lord is proud of the things that Sister Hilton and I are doing. 
       I love you guys so much! I hope that everyone is doing well. I hope you guys have so much fun at the thing that I am not acknowledging. Please remember everything that happens and send me a script of what was said. #thisisreallife I will just leave you guys off with a few funny quotes from the week.

Me: "I'm tired. I'm so tired. I've been on chemo and I have never been this tired in my life." 

Hilton:"JP! That's my mom's initials, and my...um...cat's, my old cat's initials." 

       Also, this week a member took us out to lunch at this amazing sandwhich shop. It changed my life. Then Søs Hilton and I found a chocolate shop....and then...a cupcake shop.... and I ate it all.... #guilty It was a dream come true. #citygirls 

   I love you guys!!
Keep it real. Keep it classy. And may the odds be ever in your favor.
Love,
Kat 

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

OUR FIRST BAPTISM

Our zone leader and District leader! elder Jones

The baptism




Yummy reception to welcome our newest member!




FAIR is in the FALL

Dear Weasley Family and Friends,
     "People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soulmate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.
     A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll every meet, because they tear down you walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful, soul mates, they come into your life just reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.
     A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart you ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break you heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your Spiritual Master..." - Eat, Pray, Love 
      If anyone knows me, they know that I don't believe in soul mates. I think that everyone deserves one person that they can love and grow with for eternity, but to think that there is only 1 person out there and if you don't meet them then you just lose your chance, that would be too sad for me. I don't believe that a person can be your soulmate, but I do believe that a thing can be. For me, my soulmate is my mission. As I read the quote above I can mentally check off everything my mission is doing for me. Being on a mission is a lot more painful than I am willing to admit. I don't know why but I am constantly overwhelmed by my weaknesses. When you are fighting for a human soul, your thoughts often turn to what you need to do to be better, to bring salvation to you have been given stewardship over. Missions are a time of fire. I think we all go through these times off and on. Times where pressure is great, responsibility is high, and our weaknesses seem more than obvious. 
      I remember one really difficult day in the MTC. My teacher, Elder DeCosta, pulled me outside and asked what was going on. As tears fell down my face, I told him in an exasperated cry, "I don't want to do this anymore." I'm not sure what I meant. I don't know if I meant I didn't want to sit in class anymore, or that I didn't want to be on a mission anymore, or if I just didn't want to feel anymore. Sometimes even now I think those same words. I guess what I really wanted was to just be better, to have my weaknesses be made strong, to not have them responsible for someone else's life. Elder DeCosta, talked to me a long time about this. He talked about Either 12 where we are promised that our weaknesses will become strengths. But unfortunately, they don't become strengths overnight, and they certainly do not become strengths without effort on our parts. For our weaknesses to become strengths we need something to be our mirror, we need something that shows us the qualities and attributes that aren't so pretty. My mission has done that for me, but like the quote says at the end, our weaknesses always lead us back to our Spiritual Maker. Through the Lord, our weaknesses don't matter anymore. The Savior takes them and slowly transforms them into something better, something bigger. That is the beauty of the Atonement. 
       This week had it's ups and downs like many. We had some cool miracles happen. We had a cool experience with a girl named Mirana, a woman who came to the church named Therese, and of course, Sandre's baptisim which was pretty much the highlight of my whole life. I should start with the first, Mirana. So here we are walking home going back to the church. This girl with blue hair walked past us as we contacted another girl on the street. The girl that we contacted said no, but it was okay because the girl with the blue hair overheard us. She crossed the street and came back to us and said "Are you the missionaries? Can you pray with me?" Her name was Mirana. We prayed with her right there on the street. The Spirit was so strong! She told us that she had the lessons a year ago and she promised the missionary that if she received revelation, she would be baptized. She said that she doesn't like to think of herself as religious, but the Holy Ghost always calls to her and tells her differently. I really wish the story ended with us teaching her and her accepting to be baptized, but it didn't. I do know that Mirana is special to the Lord. Before she left she thanked us for popping up into her life. I always find it funny that these people always thank us for being the miracle, when really they are the miracle that we are always praying for. 
      Next up was Therese. On Tuesday Elder J and A had a teach with a girl so they needed us to come to the church and hang out. We decided to take our morning studies there. We were in the kitchen studying Norwegian, when the doorbell to the church rang. Mryhan came and got us and told us that there was a lady there that wanted to talk to the missionaries. We came out to find a woman with blonde hair. She looked like she had had a really tough life. She looked so weak and afraid. We introduced ourselves and sat down with her in the chapel. We started talking to her about how much she is loved. We had planned to tell her about the Restoration, but we couldn't seem to leave the first part of the lesson, that she was a daughter of God. She explained to us that she has had a really hard life and done many terrible things. He dad killed himself awhile back and she said when she goes to his grave that she doesn't feel anything. We spoke to her for a long time. The feeling was ever pressing how important she is to the Lord. She left and promised to come back Thursday. She said "I will come to God on Thursday." Søster Hilton and I were on cloud nine. It really is the best feeling in the world. Teaching and watching their lives changed. There isn't anything like it. I wish that this story ended with a baptism too, but when we called Therese she just wasn't all there. I don't know if she struggles with addiction problems or what, but I really hope that this week we can take contact with her. Hahaha. Man. "take contact with her" That would be my euro-talk, aka, translating my thoughts back to english. You guys should hear my English prayers. #yikes 
    My next story does in fact end with a baptism, so this is good. I don't know if I told you guys about Sandre. I will go ahead and tell a little about him right now. Elder Jones and Ashton met Sandre on the street about 3 weeks ago. Elder Jones says that it was probably the worst contact that he has ever had with someone, but for some reason Sandre agreed to meet with them. We he came to meet with them Søster Hilton and I actually contacted him again on the street. He kindly explained he knew who we were and he was on the way to talk with other missionaries, so Søster Hilton and I did the only thing we could think of and escorted him to the church. #awkwardmissionarytimes After they met that first time the Elders told us that they weren't really sure how interested he was. They said that they hoped by the next lesson they could better gage where he was. Well the second lesson came and they walked out in a bit of a haze. We asked how it went thinking it was terrible and they explained that he wanted to be baptized. They had asked him if he read the Book of Mormon and he said "Yep." They then asked what he thought and he said "It's true." and then they committed him to baptism with a date. It really was smooth sailing from there. He never had any problems and hardly any questions. He just knows its true. 
     Saturday was his baptisim and I don't think I will ever forget it. It is the first one I have seen on the mish. We went early to help the Elders set up. They were so nervous and tense! Usually everything goes wrong on baptism day, but Sandre's was perfect. So many people came! The talks were great! Tons of our investigators came too! Everything was just smooth, it didn't stop the Elders from freaking out though. Jonesey was sweating sitting in his chair while Ashton looked like he was going to puke. Ashton baptized Sandre and Jones confirmed him the next day. It's too bad I couldn't have filmed the baptism because watching their faces was priceless. Sandre came out of the water and was just in complete shock. Ashton stood him back up straight and then they made eye contact and Ashton had the biggest smile I have ever seen and grabbed Sandre and gave him a huge hug. Jones broke into a huge smile that he couldn't stop. His face got all red. Pretty sure he was trying not to cry. Ashton started crying as soon as he brought Sandre back up. It was perfect. Time stood still for a minute. The Spirit was so strong that you couldn't help but feel the happiness and peace. This is what missionary work is for. 
      As far as our investigators go, they aren't doing too well. Our area is in a bit of a tough spot right now. Our investigators are having a hard time progressing. Its hard to watch. You come to love these people so much. You see what they are struggling with and what they are carrying around and you have the solution for them, but they won't listen. They won't believe. Its is heart breaking. Yesterday I had a good cry. Poor Søster Hilton, she has to watch way too many of these break downs! We are really hoping that this week we can many new people. I think all the companionships feel a little like this this week. Luckily we have great leaders here who are trying to come up with some new ideas. I think that we are going to have a finding night where we all go out together and go bonking in one area. That should be really good. I know that there are miracles and blessing waiting to come, I just need to find out what I need to do to enable them. 
      We also had zone training this last week, which meant that our zone all flew in again. It was a good training. Our motto for this month is "Be gjennom dagen og redd på veien" which means pray through the day and save on the way. We are working hard to do these two things, making sure that we are praying so much that we think that we just prayed 10 minutes ago and talking to everyone wherever we go. I think that there will be many miracles coming from this. Also this week, President has asked us that we really step up our game with the Norsk. 65% of our mission has only been here 6 months or less and so we are having missionaries come in and be trained by trainers that hardly know Norwegian themselves. Tomorrow he has told us to speak Norwegian all day. That probably doesn't sound too bad to you guys, but when you have 3 hours of studies in the morning and most of those hours are you planning and speaking with your comp, Norsk all day will be.... well fill in what you will... I know that President is so right though. I need to work harder at the language. My hero is Elder Jones. It's ridiculous how good at the language he is. He gave me these 533 verbs to memorize. Seriously, I think its going to kill me. Apparently he memorized them before he got to the land! #wheresmytalent So, basically its just a week of really committing and grinding down.
       Elder Jones' new comp finally got his visa and came to the land, so Elder Ashton left to go to Tromsø. I'm pretty sad about it. I am excited that he gets to go up so far in the North, but I am sad that he left the area. He is going to be so busy! Tromsø is going crazy right now. They are working with over 30 people! There is only one companionship up there, so I am trying to get President to open another area and let sisters take it. Right now, the furthest north sisters are is in Trondheim. Tromsø is pretty high up there. Maybe my prayers will be answered?! Elder Ashton and I have only spent 8 weeks of our missions not serving together. Crazy huh? Sometimes it gets like that. You just continue to serve with the same missionaries. Its pretty awesome. He is still in my zone, so I will get to see Ashton often. Elder Jones' new comp is Elder Neilson. I don't know much about him, but he seems pretty nice. I am sure that he is great. We will have to see! 
       I was so excited to hear from everyone today. Kate, I almost died reading the story of Nixon. I can't get over that! He is so cute!!! Annie, thank you for the email and the pictures! I can't believe how big everyone is getting! Seriously, where does time go? Heston is huge!!! Nixon is so cute! All these cute little boys that I don't even know yet! Man! Everyone sounds like they are doing so well. I miss you guys. Mom, the weather is super great. I don't know how Oct will be but Sept is doing well! 
      Did you guys know that Joseph Smith is 1 1/2 years younger than Emma? 
     Keep sending me pictures and videos! It is the best to see you guys. All the kids are so cute and getting so big! I love you guys!! 

Keep it real. Keep it classy. And may the odds be ever in your favor!

Love,
Kat

P.S. Is the Texas state fair starting soon?

Thursday, September 5, 2013

Mission Conference

This is 50 missionaries stuff at the church ready for our conference

As much of my MTC group as I could get together

Add This is what happens when you fall down a mountain contacting someone.... Okay maybe I got a little excited.... So we were walking up this hills and this man was down on the trail. Søster Hilton wanted to contact him, but felt like it was too awkward and we were too far away. I was all fired up from the conference and so I got a little weirdy.... I started jumping up and down saying "Excuse me! Excuse me!" When I saw I had his attention I started to tell him who we were while trying to kinda book it to get down the hill to him. Well... it was slippery.... so I slipped and got mud all over me and maybe fell down the hill for a bit... Then I just got up and I felt so awkward that I just kept talking and rambling and what I ended up saying was.... "You are very important to us, that is what we ran down that hill to you." Of course all in Norsk. I was a little in shock. I think he was too. We had a good conversation, but he didn't want to learn more. When he walked away Søster Hilton and I just started laughing. #missionarylife  caption

#throwbackmonday The gang is back together again

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

FALL IS COMING

Dear Weasley Family and Friends, 
       "One most always be careful of books, and what is inside, for words have the power to change us." -Clockwork Angel 
     First and for most, I cried a little when I opened up my email today. NIXON GRAHAM HODGKISS is here! What? There is a new person in our family and I have no idea what he looks like or the details of his entrance. #alittleontheweirdyside I am so EXCITED though. I can only imagine what he looks like. I can't believe he was born so late! Jadders, obvie just jumped the gun a little. Man, this is great. Congrats Kate and Bucky! That really is awesome. If you want I can go on and on about how cool it is that now you have a new little boy to set on the path to righteousness, but because you guys are my family I will skip that crap and just say YAY!!! CONGRATS!! Or GRATULERE MED DAGEN! I can't wait to hear ALL the details and see ALL the pictures!!!! (this small paragraph only covers about 1/3 of what I am feeling.... #underratted)
        The second reason I cried a little bit is because Lins and Jord went to my favorite pizza place which I can still remember the taste even 7 years later, I don't care what Corbs or Lins say. Man. Let me tell you, Norsk pizza is a sad excuse of food. I mean what is wrong with the pizza in this world? It's not that hard of a concept. I think its probably the #1 thing wrong here. It's a sad sad thing. 
        I am excited to hear everything about Jordan that is going on. I know that you guys were a little disappointed at first, but it sounds like really this is going to be a great thing. I can't wait to hear all about your work outs and life in Baltimore! :)
      So, this week was great in terms of inspirational moments, not so great in terms of how I feel like I am doing has a missionary. I have been struggling a lot this week with feeling inadequate. I know that it is a good thing to feel a little uncomfortable. That what helps us to be better, to always look to the next thing, but when you feel like you don't have the resources to be better, that's where the struggle comes in. I am just a little frustrated. We all know how I am with emotions. I throw myself completely into them. I am either bouncing off the walls or giving people fake smiles and not making eye contact. It's a problem on the mission because I don't really have a time for fake smiles, not when people's salvation is on the line. How much can I allow myself? I don't know. I'm human and so I am going to have times where, but I feel as a missionary that I really don't have time to be human. 
    It's a funny thing. I teach and testify to people all day about their diving heritage. I tell them the most important thing they could ever know which is that they are a child of God and He personally loves them, but do I really believe that for myself. I have been thinking about blessings of all kinds lately. I was given one by Elder Jones this week. I probably get  a blessing once a month, and when I do I have the tendency to feel that my blessings aren't very personal. It's hard for me. All I want is to feel that connection that I'm Heavenly Father's daughter. I think that a lot of us struggle with this same thing. It is easy for us to look at others and their talents and their gifts and feel inadequate, to feel that God has a more personal relationship with them. If there is one thing I have learned on my mission, it's that you really find out what your testimony is out here. It is bashed so many times a day. Everyone looks to us to have
 all the answers. Sometimes the answers they want we really have to work for. None of this probably even makes sense, but it has been on my mind a lot. How do we deal with our inadequacies? How do we carry on even with weak parts of our testimonies? How do we ever feel we have done enough? 
      At the conference, Elder Kearon spent a lot of time making sure we knew how proud of us he and Heavenly Father was for accepting the call. After the meeting he had all the sisters come into a separate room with him and he said something to the effect of, "I will never understand why you chose to serve or everything that you had to sacrifice, but the Lord is proud of you." I was in tears. I think we all were. It is so easy to feel like we aren't doing enough. These days, I feel like it is always present on my mind trying to make me pay attention to it, but I know that it is something I have struggled with my whole life. I know that it is something that is not unique to missionary work. I know that each of us feel inadequate in our different roles. We never feel good enough or strong enough or prepared enough. We don't know how we are going to be a daughter, sister, mother, brother, husband, friend, or spiritual leader. We don't know how we will fulfill our callings or live up to someone's expectations. I know we all wonder why we were given certain callings, jobs, or trials, but I also know that through the Atonement of the Savior we are all good enough. Elder Kearon said, "We keep going on in faith, know that there is always someone better than us, but knowing that's not what matters... You are here, you are invested, so be free. Be free." 
       One of the talks that I am obsessed with as of late is by Neal. A Maxwell. It is called Notwithstanding My Weakness. He said, "... I speak, not to the slackers in the kingdom, but to those who carry their owl load and more, not to those lulled into false security, but to those buffeted by false insecurity, who, though laboring devotedly in the kingdom, have recurring feeling of falling short... this feeling of inadequacy is...normal. There is no way the church can honestly describe where we must yet go and what me must yet do without creating a sense of immense distance. Following celestial road signs while in telestial traffic jams is not easy... the feeling of inadequacy are common. So are the feelings of fatigue..."Do not run faster or labor more than you have strength"... There is a difference, therefore, between being "anxiously engaged" and being over-anxious and thus under-engaged...Some of us stand before no more harsh a judge than ourselves, a judge who stubbornly refuses to admit much happy evidence and who cares nothing for due process... A constructive critic truly cares for that which he criticizes, including himself, whereas self-pity is the most condescending form of pity, it soon cannibalizes all other concerns...Fortunately, the Lord loves us more than we love ourselves." I can testify that this is true, that although we feel we aren't good enough, we are. We must always move forward, but first we should look back to see how far we have come. My testimony is long off from perfect on this principle, but the more I ponder, pray, and study on the subject the more I come to know of its truth. We are children of a Heavenly Father which entitles us to heavenly potential. 
      The conference with Elder Kearon was amazing. It was amazing to see all my friends too! Man how I have missed them. Monday night all 50 of us went out contacting and bonking. I was able to go with Søster McArthur. It was honestly like a dream. I just love her so much. I cannot even explain why or how much I love her, she is just special. Everything about her screams virtue and love. She is so good and so sweet and makes me want to be better every time I think or her, hear from her, or am around her. I want to be her companion so bad! We had so much fun together. And of course seeing Gusty was just like a dream! They really are the best. I am lucky to have so many good friends here! 
      Funny quotes:
  Søster Hilton: "I'm like a bear. I wish I could put my face in it, but I can't....Maybe I should use the scissors... Yeah... I'm going to need the scissors..." 
    I looked up and Søster Hilton is scraping out the rest of the Nutella in the jar. #missionarylife 
      The coolest part of this week was Sunday. Sunday are #badmooddays. They are so stressful! I don't know how I ever survive them. Getting investigators to church is #anightmare (Speaking of nightmares, I had one that I came home with zero baptisms....) Anywho, after helping Jonesy translate the first meeting, Søster Hilton and I were given the YSA lesson to teach about 1 minute before it started. Ask me how much I love that? #notatall Anyways I was pretty annoyed and frustrated and then I get a text from Jonesy telling me that our Napoli family is at church. Sidenote: Don't know if I have told you about them. It is a mom and dad and two children. We can't communicate with them very well because Napolese is like an nonresistant language, but they are awesome. Well I march myself into sacrament meeting and look at the back to not only see our Napoli family, but their grandma and their sister! Hollar! #Napolipartyintheback We were able to teach them afterwards and at the end we had a prayer and all of us knelled down together, even the kids. I almost cried. Man, missionary work is cool. 
      We are really trying to get things going in our area. We have been doing a lot of contacting on the streets. I am getting much better at it! My goal is to be really comfortable with it by the November transfer. Btw, our transfers have been shortened to 6 weeks because now missionaries are coming every 6 weeks for awhile, so there is another transfer in Oct. Shoot me now. My dream is to stay in Trondheim and start training in Nov. I doubt it will happen though. I would love to train here though. It would be nice to know an area before training. We have a lot of different sisters that can train now though, so who knows what will happen. 
     I am going to go and get Søster Hilton some new shoes. They have terrible holes in them and its started to affect our contacting. People see her shoes and then give us weird looks. #satan I love you all. Brent and Lori, you guys are always in my prayers. I think about you often. Kate and Corbs, congrats again! You guys are the awesome! Heather, thank you for your email last week. You guys are on my mind often too. And of course everyone else. I hope that everything is going well. Fill me in on all of your lives! Fall is here in Trondheim. It's cold!!!!!!!!!!!!! Eeeekkk!! Feels like football season!
Keep it real. Keep it classy. And may the odds be ever in your favor.
Love,
Søster Kat

Shout Outs!
Nixon- Happy Day of Birth!
Annie- Happy birthday Annie! I think you are just amazing and your hair is so cute! I can't wait to hear about what you do for your birthday! I hope that it is a great one! Send lots of pics of you and your cute family! Love you!